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I was 8 years old
Out walking with my daddy
I saw a brand-new bike, the very best
I squeezed my daddy's hand
and pointed and he said yes
He smiled and he said yes
Cause he thought that was
all he had to give me
That was all he could give
I was 12 years old
My brother stole a switchblade
He left the store
It was underneath his vest
He asked me
Shall I show you how I did it?
And I said yes I smiled and I said yes
And he thought that was
all he had to give me
That was all he could give
I was born to this world
as wealthy as you
But your daddy gave you his time
and something to do
My daddy gave me a dime
and a drive on Sunday
Said I'll talk with you one day
Come and see me someday
I was 17 years old
And I had girl friends
I loved every single one
just like the rest
And every single one gave me her body
Oh they said yes
They smiled and whispered yes
And I thought that was
all they had to give me
And that was all I would give
I was born to this world
as naked as you
But your mama clothed you in love
and it's grown with you too
My mama dressed me in hate
But it's wearing this now
I just want to give in now
I've just got to give in
I was 29 last month
The wife just left me
She took the kid
and caught a greyhoud west
The day she went
she asked me did I love her
And I said yes
I smiled and nodded yes
And I know that word was
all I had to give her
But how's she going to teach
my child to live?
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내가 8살이었을 때
아빠와 함께 길을 걷다가
새로 나온 최고급 자전거를 보고
아빠 손을 움켜잡고
자전거를 가리켰더니
아빠는 웃으시며 "응" 하셨지
아빠는 내게 해줄 수 있는 건
그게 전부라고 생각하셨으니까
그게 전부라고 말이야
내가 12살이었을 때
형은 잭나이프를 훔쳤어
옷 속에 감추고
가게를 나온 거야
형은 칼을 어떻게 훔쳤는지
알려줄까 물었고
나는 웃으며 "응"하고 대답했어
형은 내게 해줄 수 있는 건
그게 전부라고 생각했어
그게 전부라고 말이야
나도 남들처럼 풍족하게
이 세상에 태어났어
다른 아빠들은 시간을 내어
아이들과 함께 보냈지만
우리 아빠는 일요일에
동전을 쥐어주고 차를 태워주면서
다음에 얘기할 테니
나중에 찾아오라고 했어
17살이 되니
여자 친구들이 생겼어
그 친구들 모두
똑같이 사랑했고
사랑도 나누었지
여자 친구들은 웃으며
"응"이라고 속삭였어
그게 내게 줄 수 있는
전부라고 생각했고
내가 줄 수 있는 것도 그게 전부였어
나도 남들처럼 이 세상에
벌거벗은 채 태어났어
다른 엄마들은 사랑으로
아이를 입히고 키웠지만
우리 엄마는 나를 증오로 키웠지
하지만 이제 괜찮아졌어
그냥 받아들이고 싶어
받아들여야만 해
지난달에 29살이 되었는데
아내가 떠났어
아이와 함께 버스를 타고
서부로 가버렸어
아내가 떠나던 날 내게 묻더군
사랑하느냐고
그래서 웃으며 대답했지 "응"
고개를 끄덕이며 그렇다고 했어
그게 내가 아내에게
해줄 수 있는 전부였어
하지만 아내가 어떻게
아이들이 살아가도록 가르칠 수 있을까
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